Kim Kardashian has denied that her marriage to Kris Humphries was a hoax, saying she was left utterly depressed after their break-up, and that her fanbase was strong enough without having to stage drama for ratings.
In a frank interview with Oprah Winfrey, the reality star opened up about the doomed romance, and stressed that she still has a place in her heart for her ex. Kim revealed that it was not until the couple moved in together that it dawned on her that married life was ‘not for me’.
Speaking to the talk show host, Kim said: ‘I was in love, I wanted the life that I always pictured my fairytale life to be. I would’ve had an extravagant wedding anyway, to end that relationship was a risk in itself to lose ratings and I had to take the risk to be honest to myself.’
Kim, who never mentioned Kris by name during the chat, claimed that the problem was that the pair had never spent enough time alone before their 72-day marriage broke down.
She told Oprah: ‘I think when people first meet, everything is great in the beginning, but I didn’t spend more than a whole week with my ex before we married. When we moved in together, I saw how our relationship was… I don’t want to get into the small things, but once we moved in, I knew he was not the one.’
As Oprah quizzed her about her pre-wedding nerves, Kim said: ‘I didn’t have an inkling, but everyone around me did. The night before, mum said, “Do you want out?” She said, “You’re not yourself”. But I said no, I got angry, I was thinking, “How dare you!”’
Kim made it clear that Kris did not do anything specifically wrong, and denied that he hit her or lashed out: ‘He’s a good person. I will always have a place in my heart for him. It just wasn’t for me.’
And while Kim admitted she was ‘bored’ in the romance, she didn’t attribute it as the reason for leaving. She said: ‘You know in your heart. Mum was supportive, so I took that time off afterwards… I would rather have been beaten up in the media than live a life that wasn’t happy.’
She continued: ‘I was in such a deep depression I thought I was going to back away from everything. I stayed at home for almost four months and I’m a better person now, as heartbreaking as it was to go through.’
Kim added: ‘For anyone I hurt, I’m truly sorry, I don’t wish pain on anyone, but the person I am because of that crazy experience, I wouldn’t change it for the world. I loved him, obviously it hurt him, and it hurt me too. It was embarassing, I don’t want to call it a mistake, it was a lesson.’
Oprah also approached the subject of the infamous sex tape during the interview. Kim claimed that the tape ‘introduced her to the world in a negative way’, so she was forced to ‘work ten times harder to get people to see the real me’.